So SAHM or part-time working momma??
For the last seven plus years, I have had a good job, a job that pays well and has always allowed me the work-life balance that my family has needed. Before kids, I worked full time and had a great schedule that allowed three day weekends every other week. After Isaiah arrived, I was able to work part-time and had flexibility to be home when my family needed me. Lately, there have been some changes at work that aren't as accommodating for the work-life balance that this momma of almost two kiddies needs. In addition to the changes, John and I always felt that we would like for me to be a stay at home mom (SAHM) after kids. With an additional child almost here and a shortage of family nearby, I would almost have to put my kids into daycare to make even a part-time schedule work. I am - and have always been - adamantly opposed to daycare for my children. I know some families and single parents need daycare to make it work, and that can be a difficult place to be in. But I never ever wanted to send my children to daycare. I want to be the one who spends copious amounts of time with them day to day, teaching, nurturing, and - well - mothering them.
So here I stand on the brink of something, it may be the end of a chapter and beginning of a new one or it may not be the end of this chapter yet. I hesitate to say that I'm done working, especially when I examine how much time and effort I have invested in this chapter of my life, it's so hard to say it may be over. Four years on a mechanical engineering degree, close to a year finding and waiting for my job, and then seven years pouring my best into my job. I feel that I gave so much and tried so hard to better the company that to just walk away seems silly.
But all of my feelings don't change who is really in charge and whose plan I really want to follow. I would be ridiculously dumb to neglect the tug of God in all of this. While my very human nature says "stay, the money is good!", my spirit senses that there is so much more around the corner. What is God going to do? I don't really know, it's not my plan. I know He's spoken to my heart about writing, He's nurtured some of my passions, such as family, children, marriage, and relationship, and He's given me trials to learn from and share with others. Is He going to begin a writing career? I believe He already has, the beginnings are small, like this blog and devotionals I've previously written, but God says don't despise small beginnings (Zechariah 4:10). Regardless of my small beginnings, God will accomplish His purposes and plans through my life, as I yield to His way. So what's just around the corner - SAHM or part-time working momma? Hang on, follow my blog, and we will find out together.